My Mission (continued)

Just as I promised yesterday I would like to share the poem I wrote at OHI in June for the boy who inspired me to look for the boy inside of me.  He is Xavier and I happened upon him when he was visiting OHI with his sister, mom and grandmother.  Xavier could light a room but what was most impressive about him was his sense of self and extreme joy.  He is the boy who has brought me closer to my tears and more willing to take back what I deserved as a child by nurturing myself and creating a safe place for him, my little Maximo Elliott, to heal.

Xavier

Xavier,
you are the boy that I was, the boy that I am and the child inside of me

I see you running towards the sun and I am inspired, knowing that it is never too late for me.

Beloved little boy inside of me, living, laughing and free

I see the sun in your eyes, our eyes, gleaming shiny like a new toy.

You have brought me back to the beginning when I was shear abandon and playful heart

when I was dancing in circles and wished all  my dreams were reality

Xavier,
with your chocolate smile and your many questions about the most simple of life's insights

With your smile as big as the ocean and as broad as the slopes of the hills of Mexico

You have brought me back to my inner child and asked of me all that I should have asked myself

Where is god, who is goddess, is there just one more dinosaur left and if there is where is it?

Who is Buda, where is Buda, have we enough Buda inside of us?

Where did my little boy go, Xavier, where did he go?

Do not answer that question for me my little man of men, spirit of spirits, light of light,

for in you I have found him.

Elliott Collazo
Written in June 2013 for a little boy named Xavier