Look At Death and Live
Each and every blog about death brings me closer to understanding it and sharing it with others. Processing this is someting that I think we should all do, especially if we are seasoned people on this earth, like I am. Note: I did not use the word old or older. I think that death is often feared and sometimes dreaded. It is likely that those of us who fear it and dread it may die in that very state of being. We have all heard and seen situations of death that are hard to look at because the person struggles with the thought of dying while we have also witnessed those who seem to die with dignity and with a sense of joy and surrender. Of course we are not sure how we will pass from this earth to the magical realm yet it is in how we live that we will most likely take our journey home.
We have all had our issues and we have all been dealt some cards that we would have rather not been dealt. Yet is seems some of us can overcome just about anything while others "se aogan en un baso de aqua", drown in a glass of water, allowing the experiences to feel worse than they are and not turning them into a life lesson. It is not easy getting through some of the things that happen to us. I like many have a long list of things: my father left us, my mother was abusive, my sister committed suicide, I was bullied in school and I have struggled with depression. It is only because there is a converse side and I prefer to focus on that instead that I set myself free. For one, my grandparents were awesome and loving, I was married to a woman who loved me with all of her heart, I have two incredible children and three grandchildren who adore me. My closest friends are generous and giving and I look like a rock star at 63. Ok, maybe not the rock star part. My point is that counting our blessings helps us to live a life that is fulfilling rather than a life of resentments and sorrow. It does not mean we won't sometimes feel bad but only that living a life of gratitude leads to a graceful ending.
Today I went and got a pedicure, then had a great dinner out. When I got to my appointment for my pedicure they then stated there would be a thirty minute wait. I turned and left the spa, got in the car and sat there listening to music when I realized that my reaction was one of limitations and of resentment and not for the gratitude of what I was to receive. As it turned out I was seated, the massage feature was turned on and a magazine put in my hand. I felt embarrassed at my reaction yet the ladies who work there did not allow my reaction to be their truth and proceeded to show me love. In fact the one who did my feet massaged me for what seemed like a very long time and I know was an extra pampering. In that I understood that I could live me life without the resentment and the reactions but rather the flow of things. Although I said nothing my energy was read by people who know how to do that. Living our lives in this resentful, reactionary place is not going to make death more peaceful. In fact, I think it would make death much more difficult because our hearts are not at peace and we are going against the natural flow.
Some may ask: "where do we go when we die?" I think that for some that question makes sense but for me it does not. I am not concerned about where I go because I may not go anywhere. I am concerned more about releasing my body and becoming a full spiritual being. I am sure that wherever I am it will be where I am meant to be. I may not go anywhere and I am OK with that. I am literally sure that I will become what I am meant to be, an eternal being. Our fear of death comes from the idea that when we die it is all over and there is nothing else and for some that dream may come true. I prefer to know that when I move on I will become whole. I think that when I go I will still be here, just in another form.
Elliott Maximo Collazo
We have all had our issues and we have all been dealt some cards that we would have rather not been dealt. Yet is seems some of us can overcome just about anything while others "se aogan en un baso de aqua", drown in a glass of water, allowing the experiences to feel worse than they are and not turning them into a life lesson. It is not easy getting through some of the things that happen to us. I like many have a long list of things: my father left us, my mother was abusive, my sister committed suicide, I was bullied in school and I have struggled with depression. It is only because there is a converse side and I prefer to focus on that instead that I set myself free. For one, my grandparents were awesome and loving, I was married to a woman who loved me with all of her heart, I have two incredible children and three grandchildren who adore me. My closest friends are generous and giving and I look like a rock star at 63. Ok, maybe not the rock star part. My point is that counting our blessings helps us to live a life that is fulfilling rather than a life of resentments and sorrow. It does not mean we won't sometimes feel bad but only that living a life of gratitude leads to a graceful ending.
Today I went and got a pedicure, then had a great dinner out. When I got to my appointment for my pedicure they then stated there would be a thirty minute wait. I turned and left the spa, got in the car and sat there listening to music when I realized that my reaction was one of limitations and of resentment and not for the gratitude of what I was to receive. As it turned out I was seated, the massage feature was turned on and a magazine put in my hand. I felt embarrassed at my reaction yet the ladies who work there did not allow my reaction to be their truth and proceeded to show me love. In fact the one who did my feet massaged me for what seemed like a very long time and I know was an extra pampering. In that I understood that I could live me life without the resentment and the reactions but rather the flow of things. Although I said nothing my energy was read by people who know how to do that. Living our lives in this resentful, reactionary place is not going to make death more peaceful. In fact, I think it would make death much more difficult because our hearts are not at peace and we are going against the natural flow.
Some may ask: "where do we go when we die?" I think that for some that question makes sense but for me it does not. I am not concerned about where I go because I may not go anywhere. I am concerned more about releasing my body and becoming a full spiritual being. I am sure that wherever I am it will be where I am meant to be. I may not go anywhere and I am OK with that. I am literally sure that I will become what I am meant to be, an eternal being. Our fear of death comes from the idea that when we die it is all over and there is nothing else and for some that dream may come true. I prefer to know that when I move on I will become whole. I think that when I go I will still be here, just in another form.
Elliott Maximo Collazo
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