dont even try it

I am alone at home at two am so I hear a bing on my door and realize that the alarm on the pad had been tampered with.  I talk on the  phone with the police while they send someone by to ask me about it as I called 911 emergency.  I thought the FB police found out I had deleted my account and my friends had all contacted them but in fact FB could really give a shit about me deleting my account and tomorrow no today my friends are coming in from the city.  The offered to pick me up so I very slowly  accepted thinking that they may have read about it on FaceBook but they couldn't have because I deleted my FB account over two weeks ago.  Who the fuck is reading my shit and my posts and how do these kids get my information.  I almost peed in my pants when I got a call from a friend having a short affair with a woman friend who I deleted.  I almost fell over when my niececalled and   asked me why id' deleted her.  I was even more amused when FB called me in person since they did not and I made that shit up.  LOL, LMAO, OMG and fuck you.  I like the latter.

Another friend called me because for once she could not talk to me via cyberspace and was devastated that I either deleted her or deleted her contact from my phone.  No apologies for not calling me and reading and benefitting from my blog.  No big deal.  I too was a bit miffed at her too.  

 And so life goes on in the big boy big girl gay straight panty world where suburban men arepedi files  and homos are snorting coke.  I never denied that ' i am a prostitute' and I never said that at the party although others thoughT.

 I cried and cried the other day but my partner did not  hear me or see me even though I asked him to come bathe me.  He was scared and my going off on him did not help  him pull his head out of his ass.  So on Saturday I have to see a client for two hours and I cannot go to the party, shit.  It feels like grammar school again.  Please don't  post me on FB and make my life your life.  I don't really 
want others to know that much about me.  I love my kids, my husband and my life.  I value the judgements of others but I don't need anyone's approval if it is judgemental.  I have a judgmental Judy, judy and julie in my life now.  

 For years I have been telling people including my kids that I am private and for years now I tell my stuff on Facebook not realizing that my other friends of friends are posting it.  It is like a enigma that is going around. 

 Get off  facebook, get your head out of your ass, face the person and talk it out.  Don't use media toinsult  others like my former mother in law insulted me.  




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