Family Is Everything
As some of you can imagine, being surrounded by a pink butterfly may be considered magical but being loved my someone like a daughter is ever more significant. Yesterday it was Taina and today Camille who is the youngest of the two spent time with me right there, right by by bedside. I guess one cannot ask for more that hat. Family is everything. This is what it all comes down to: familia. There are the folks who love you most of the time and know when to take a nice little break from you.
In all of my dealings with parents and their children I have rarely matched this kind of unconditional handling of my feelings, my beliefs and respect for me spirit. Every night before I retire to bed I think about how much of what I have others do not. One might think so but it is not true of all families. I even have family members of my former wife who still connect with me and who still care about what happens to me. As much as I would wish that for all of mankind there are plenty of people who are suffering because they feel unloved, untouched, uncared or not thought about.
It is not a secret that my mother and I have had our disagreements yet she has gone out of her way to be with me near me and for me. Just looking at her and how she dresses I realize how much I learned about presence and about kindness and even about how to socialize. Her as a matter of fact manner inspires me and I could see how it inspires others. Just a no nonsense person with a good heart who would help any stranger on a bus she may come to meet. Family is everything.
One evening I went to dinner at my former wife's cousin's home and I was so exhausted she delivered me to her bedroom, turned on the cable and I slept until it was time to eat. That is what family is to me. A warm gentle and kind interaction that isn't filled to the top with ego or with out doing anyone else, each person playing a roll that is part of a whole.
Sometimes I dig deeper to understand why there are that many wondrous people who care about me but when release this overwhelming feeling I see that what I get I get and what I don't get should never not be labeled under "not enough" as was the case when I was younger and I fought for attention thinking that I needed it to breathe my next breath or thinking that If someone did not love me then no one did.
Today my beautiful people it is imperative that we understand that there are going to be some we win and some we don't win and that winning everyone over is really not the point nor should it be the focus. When the seed flys off the grass and it makes it to become a flower or a weed it is not asking "am I pretty, do I deserve to be?".
In all of my dealings with parents and their children I have rarely matched this kind of unconditional handling of my feelings, my beliefs and respect for me spirit. Every night before I retire to bed I think about how much of what I have others do not. One might think so but it is not true of all families. I even have family members of my former wife who still connect with me and who still care about what happens to me. As much as I would wish that for all of mankind there are plenty of people who are suffering because they feel unloved, untouched, uncared or not thought about.
It is not a secret that my mother and I have had our disagreements yet she has gone out of her way to be with me near me and for me. Just looking at her and how she dresses I realize how much I learned about presence and about kindness and even about how to socialize. Her as a matter of fact manner inspires me and I could see how it inspires others. Just a no nonsense person with a good heart who would help any stranger on a bus she may come to meet. Family is everything.
One evening I went to dinner at my former wife's cousin's home and I was so exhausted she delivered me to her bedroom, turned on the cable and I slept until it was time to eat. That is what family is to me. A warm gentle and kind interaction that isn't filled to the top with ego or with out doing anyone else, each person playing a roll that is part of a whole.
Sometimes I dig deeper to understand why there are that many wondrous people who care about me but when release this overwhelming feeling I see that what I get I get and what I don't get should never not be labeled under "not enough" as was the case when I was younger and I fought for attention thinking that I needed it to breathe my next breath or thinking that If someone did not love me then no one did.
Today my beautiful people it is imperative that we understand that there are going to be some we win and some we don't win and that winning everyone over is really not the point nor should it be the focus. When the seed flys off the grass and it makes it to become a flower or a weed it is not asking "am I pretty, do I deserve to be?".
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