Happy Birthday Luz
I woke up today more acutely aware that it was Lucy's birthday. Today she would have been 62 and in five months I will also be 62. We were only five months apart. The fact that I could not call her was a bit painful for me because I would call her every year for her birthday even if I called her at work. I was consoled by one of Luis Miguel's ballads called "Te Desean", they desire you. The song is about a woman who a man is in love with and feels like everyone sees her appeal and also desire her. It goes on to say that this was before she was his. That I love you, that you love me, everyone knows we desire each other. If they only knew that you were much more than fire. We still desire each other my love of my life. Although very difficult to get the full impact of the song in English it is by far one of the most beautiful songs about a man's love for a woman.
When Luz was young I recall the times we went out to a party, a wedding or a club. I always let her walk in front of me and I would follow her. I had another motive in that I wanted to see other people's reaction to her. She floated across a room like an angel and her porcelain skin with red lipstick drew attention. No one walked like she did nor were they to me as beautiful as my wife. I was excited to see how others perceived her and especially when srangers' heads turned. I understood it because I had the very same reaction to her the first day I set eyes on her when I said to myself "I am going to marry her". Who would have known that I actually would marry her and that this crazy thought was not so crazy after all.
The day that I was married to my Luz Maria I waited by the alter like all grooms do but I don't think anyone could truly know how emotional it is to see a woman with the beauty and energy that radiated out of my beloved. It was overwhelming and even though I wanted to cry I held it in. This day would be about her and as she walked closer to me holding her father's arm I felt like this would be the beginning of a wonderful life for me. That turned out to be so very true. She would bring to me the light and joy that I'd never known before her. I would spend ten years in a relationship with a person who was always smiling and always looking up at the sky. I learned all that I need to learn in life and had the happiest times ever.
Today I think of Luz Maria fondly and with tears in my eyes because like everyone who loved her I miss her terribly. I am humbled by the thought that she is lifting me from my pain and looking through my glass doors lovingly. She is telling me that I am going to be OK and that is just like her. She had a way with words and feelings of sadness and joy. She still does even though she is not her in physical form. She still sings to me and I still see her dancing with me even when she was exhausted. She served and cared for me every single time I needed her. I will never be good enough for her but I will do all that I can to honor her.
Happy birthday my lovely friend. I will not forget you.
Love your man,
Elliott
When Luz was young I recall the times we went out to a party, a wedding or a club. I always let her walk in front of me and I would follow her. I had another motive in that I wanted to see other people's reaction to her. She floated across a room like an angel and her porcelain skin with red lipstick drew attention. No one walked like she did nor were they to me as beautiful as my wife. I was excited to see how others perceived her and especially when srangers' heads turned. I understood it because I had the very same reaction to her the first day I set eyes on her when I said to myself "I am going to marry her". Who would have known that I actually would marry her and that this crazy thought was not so crazy after all.
The day that I was married to my Luz Maria I waited by the alter like all grooms do but I don't think anyone could truly know how emotional it is to see a woman with the beauty and energy that radiated out of my beloved. It was overwhelming and even though I wanted to cry I held it in. This day would be about her and as she walked closer to me holding her father's arm I felt like this would be the beginning of a wonderful life for me. That turned out to be so very true. She would bring to me the light and joy that I'd never known before her. I would spend ten years in a relationship with a person who was always smiling and always looking up at the sky. I learned all that I need to learn in life and had the happiest times ever.
Today I think of Luz Maria fondly and with tears in my eyes because like everyone who loved her I miss her terribly. I am humbled by the thought that she is lifting me from my pain and looking through my glass doors lovingly. She is telling me that I am going to be OK and that is just like her. She had a way with words and feelings of sadness and joy. She still does even though she is not her in physical form. She still sings to me and I still see her dancing with me even when she was exhausted. She served and cared for me every single time I needed her. I will never be good enough for her but I will do all that I can to honor her.
Happy birthday my lovely friend. I will not forget you.
Love your man,
Elliott
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