Swing from the Chandelier
This is got to be a moment in time when my granddaughter Mia sent me a text to listen to the song "Chandelier" by a singer by the name of Sia. I went to Utube shortly after that to listen to the song and I could not comprehend just why but I started to cry. The song talks about hanging from the chandelier and "holding on just for tonight". One can feel the lyrics penetrate you. It is a powerful song about someone who is struggling with whatever she is fighting and how she is holding on to the chandelier. The song seems to be calling out to others to live their life fully no matter what and to go ahead and feel the feelings, swinging from the chandelier. "Won't look down won't open my eyes". It makes one feel like she is hanging from that place where she just cannot look down and cannot deal with whatever is down there.
Sometimes we are there hanging from the chandelier just holding on for dear life, trying to get through it. "Holding on for tonight". That is at times all we can do and all that can be expected of us. We are in a place where we are at the end of our rope, not knowing what will happen next. Imagine hanging from a light fixture that could fall any time. In this song she expresses that delicate emotional place where you swing from a place where you could fall. At one time she says "help me out I am holding on for dear life". At times that is the way I feel and I am sure some of you can relate to it.
"I am going to fly like a bird for the night". These words are so powerful. It is when we are just holding on to the moment and trying to just fly for now. She ends the song with "I am just holding on for tonight". This is how one feels when you heart is heavy and you just want to hold on for the night and make it through that one day or night. Sometimes it's all we can do and hope for. To hold on for the night. To have the ability to make it one more day.
Cancer is like that. It puts you in a place of living for that day alone, not one more or one less. Just the one you are living, "holding onto for tonight". I keep promising myself that I am not going to talk about the C word. I keep thinking that it does no good to talk about it and then something like this happens where your grandchild sends you a song and you realize: "My god that is exactly how I feel". I am hanging from the chandelier. I am really just making it. I am barely holding on. I am barely here". It is a reminder that we are just here for a time and that it is best to hang from the chandelier if need be and make the best of it. You could drop down from it and end up on the floor and who knows how injured you could get, both emotionally and physically.
Sometimes we are there hanging from the chandelier just holding on for dear life, trying to get through it. "Holding on for tonight". That is at times all we can do and all that can be expected of us. We are in a place where we are at the end of our rope, not knowing what will happen next. Imagine hanging from a light fixture that could fall any time. In this song she expresses that delicate emotional place where you swing from a place where you could fall. At one time she says "help me out I am holding on for dear life". At times that is the way I feel and I am sure some of you can relate to it.
"I am going to fly like a bird for the night". These words are so powerful. It is when we are just holding on to the moment and trying to just fly for now. She ends the song with "I am just holding on for tonight". This is how one feels when you heart is heavy and you just want to hold on for the night and make it through that one day or night. Sometimes it's all we can do and hope for. To hold on for the night. To have the ability to make it one more day.
Cancer is like that. It puts you in a place of living for that day alone, not one more or one less. Just the one you are living, "holding onto for tonight". I keep promising myself that I am not going to talk about the C word. I keep thinking that it does no good to talk about it and then something like this happens where your grandchild sends you a song and you realize: "My god that is exactly how I feel". I am hanging from the chandelier. I am really just making it. I am barely holding on. I am barely here". It is a reminder that we are just here for a time and that it is best to hang from the chandelier if need be and make the best of it. You could drop down from it and end up on the floor and who knows how injured you could get, both emotionally and physically.
I told Mia to send you that song. I KNEW you would be moved by it. Mia sings it beautifully as well :) Love you!
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